My life is soo strange, so many ups n downs kee..., maybe its not interesting enough going in a straighttt line, but i could do with some stability in my life right now :). Maybe I should get my priorities set, my mind wanders all the time, maybe its da age :), i live like theres no tomoroow, and when a week passes, i go like owww :o a week gone by already, I wasted the whole week, what a wastee :).
Life always doesn't go exactly as what you want. I myself live my life as a little boy :D. If you don't be good then santa won't come in the christmas, and wallaaa no chak chak :D. Its not a bad way to live actually, it fits perfectly to my character and it is working quite nicely for meh. The thing is being good is good but is it enough? :D, if you want to live a non compromising life as I do, then it sure isn't :D. As you can see, I am still trying to find out what Ive got to do :D. Maybe totally uncompromising life is not possible, there is no perfection in anything in this world. I don't even care about smaller things in life, not exactly bindas, don't know if I ever have been bindas :D.
The televisions nowadays :D., really messes meh up :D, especially the travel n living channel :D. Do all the people live their life like in the tv??? The Amsterdam, Paris, New York??? such a big world, such a short life :D. Okeyyy, more next time, am getting all messed up in my mind :D.
Should I??? Not only saturdays..., I ask sth like this everyday, am I overworking????, or underworking???. I actually spend so much time thinking that I don't get anything done and still feel am being overworked :D. I don't know if I am only one having the problem :).
Take today for instance. I have 2 projects in hand right now, an appartment project and a urban design project, both very complex. I wake up at 8:30 in the morning as I usually do, and I hadn't even freshend up, I got a call from Saroj dai to come to his house. It was already planned yesterday, I couldn't say no. I didn't hurry, I ate breakfast, surfed net for some time, then hurried to Saroj dai's home in my bicycle. I spent almost 3hours there. Saroj dai is very good architect and explains everything, but very picky on even small details :D. I am a lazy person :D, I know how to do things but too lazy to do it all. After finishing there I returned home and it was almost one. I ate lunch, I was tired,... but I don't like sleeping in the afternoon. I sat chatting with meh fren, I just love chatting :D. I didn't touch a thing of my work :). And now I am feeling if I should work or continue with surfing net, or go to sleep. Its saturday for christs shake. I shouldn't be having these tensons, its a holiday :D.
My life is just perfect... it didn't use to be. I was a moaner, always complaining about this and that, nothing seemed right. Maybe it didn't too at that time, so sick of things going around. Nowadays I don't even care, my life is just too perfect, better than perfect actually, many things are going better than I had ever imagined.
It might sound odd, and I myself am having trouble writing it, but it is true. Chatting has changed my world completely :). Its been about a year and a half since I first started chatting in mobile. I am not a man made for chatting actually, a person like meh should not chat. My head hurts everyday, too much joy sometimes, sometimes almost tears, am a dreamer, think too much. Why why why???... my lifes just too perfect :(.
Its an addiction, I don't know how cigerette or drugs addiction feels like, so dunno which one is better :). Sometimes I seem to care too much, dats what I wrote in my hi5 profile some 1 yr ago mayb, still so much proud of it :D. A person like meh should never chat. My head hurts with everyday that goes by, am not living my own life, seem to forget the distance, it feels like Ive been living with my skull ripped off my head. With every word it feels like someones poking my brain with a stick :D. Its an addiction, people won't stop smoking, would they :D.
Yeah, my lifes perfect,... I live many lives... don't let me live on my own...
I always thought this is the age to work hard, but phew #:-S, thats a lot of hard work :) :(. I rarely sleep before 1 nowadays, and starting to get sleepless at nights :D. Sleeping late had been a habit of mine since the college, 1 is actually pretty routine for meh :D, but the ofice is a bit too tiring for my liking, dunno why. I really don't do nothing in ofice :D, I sure have a fun job :), all day I watch the interns do their job :).
Maybe 10-5 job aint for me :D. I always wondered what people will do sitting all day in the ofice :D. I mean, isn't it too much ^o). Maybe you get used to it, but I still think its a waste of time, and I hate wasting my time :D. I used to think I'd go to work outside kathmandu, but later I started wondering if it was worth it??? would it make a difference??? The money sure is tempting :D, but I well I don't even like 10-5 job, a 27/7 job uhhh... :D.
Really dunno what the future holds for meh. But one thing is sure, this one year is going to be a true test for meh. Wish meh luck :D.
